Contentment

Not one of my usual blog posts, but it's been on my heart, so I thought I'd share...

Last Sunday we had a guest preacher at church and he spoke on stewardship and the fact that EVERYTHING we have comes from God.

At one point during his sermon, a feeling of pure contentment overwhelmed me.

All my life I've been a people pleaser and being a pastor's wife doesn't help that much! I've often felt (not by anyone else's pressures, just my own) like I have to "keep up with the Jones" whether it's how I look, or how my child looks, or even how my house is decorated, or how good of a cook or housekeeper I am...can we say pride??

But on Sunday, as the pastor was talking about how every gift that we have is from God, I was convicted of being prideful, being jealous, being discontent....

And at that point, I resolved to be content...even with my mish mosh of hand-me-down furniture, and homemade decor because I can't (and won't) shop at expensive stores for the trendiest look, and clothes that you would never see on a runway, and a house that looks like a toddler runs around playing all day, and a yard that will not grow anything but moss....

I resolve to be content because my GOOD and GRACIOUS Father in heaven, out of His goodness has blessed me with more than I need or deserve...and not because of merit or any goodness on my part...but just because He chose to do it.

I resolve to be content because His provision has allowed me to be at home with a precious little boy, because I have food to eat and a house to live in...and even things like running water and warmth and coolness, and many "things" that I don't even need. I resolve to be content...even when life gets stressful and hard and scary and sad....because I have GOD...and He's more than enough....and because he has given me the best gift EVER...life spent in eternity with Him....